Happy 5th Birthday to my Firstborn

Has it really been 5 years since I gave birth to you?  I am still amazed sometimes at how God has allowed me to be a mom in spite of my crazy past.  He used the fact that I got pregnant to stop me in my tracks and make me realize that there is more to life than ME.

I changed after I gave birth to you.  I started to become the woman that God intended me to be and I have never turned back.

You were not a very easy baby due to a severe acid reflux for the first year of your life.  I hurt so much because you were always in pain.  It was a challenge feeding you and having you throw up so much.  I felt so frustrated that you and anyone close to you were always soaked with throw-up. You had to sleep sitting up in your car seat for many months and you always lived in bibs.

As a toddler things got so much easier.  You got used to food and you stopped throwing up all together when you were a little over a year.  You loved to be cuddled (and still do when you are tired or cranky).  You were addicted to Barney and you always made me put on the same video over and over again until I started singing the stupid songs in my sleep – ugh!

I also used to stare at you while you slept and sometimes still do, remembering how much my life changed with the start of your precious life.

But it wasn’t long after you were born that I was pregnant with your sister.  It was a tough transition with you being only 18 months old and me having another baby.  You were still very much a baby yourself.  You are just like your mommy in a lot of ways that you have a hard time with change.  It takes you a while to adjust, but then you slip into the routine and begin to accept things.  That is how you were with your sister.  But the funny thing is, now you are inseparable and I would not have it any other way.  🙂  Your sister ADORES you and I am sure your other siblings will love you just the same.  🙂

I love that you are becoming your own person with such a special personality.  You love to help and to give (when we catch you in the right mood  LOL)  You are particular (like your mommy), you like things a certain way.  You are creative.  You are thoughtful and honest.  It melted my heart the other day when I asked you about the orange that I put in your lunch, whether or not you ate it.  An you answered me saying “Do you want me to tell you the truth?”  And I said “of course” and you said “I threw it away”.  You looked at me with such a sweet and innocent face and all I could do was grab you and thank you for being honest with me.  I of course told you that I was not happy about you throwing the orange away, but that it is very important to tell the truth even though you know it may upset me.  It was a very special moment that I will never forget.

I love that you are so sweet and gentle with your baby brother, that the first thing you do in the morning is go to him and talk to him and not just for a minute, but you sit down and spend quality time with him.

I love that you remember every single thing about anything I ever say.  If I mention something the day before about reminding me about something – you always remember.

You pay close attention to detail.  It makes me laugh sometimes when you come home and you notice when something is moved or I bought something new.  You always make mention of the tiniest details.  I guess it is funny to me, because that is EXACTLY how I am too. 🙂

I love that you have a special blanky that you used to carry around everywhere, but now you mostly just sleep with (an old bright yellow pillowcase).

You love to go on adventures – whether it be hiking, fishing, camping, going to the farm or the zoo, or even just going for a fun ride in the car.  You are always up for an outing.

I love that you are sensitive.  But the fact that you whine and cry over anything and everything is a bit annoying at times.  I am hoping you will grow out of it as you get older. 🙂

I am also hoping that you will be a good boy during this transition time of completely taking your bobo away.  We have been planning this for weeks.  You are 5 years old now and it is time to let go of that.   Mommy should NEVER have let you have it this long even if it is just at bedtime.

Lastly, I love that you still ask me to hold you and you lay in my arms and let me rock you in the rocking chair.  I hope I never lose that cuddly boy!

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You are my precious baby boy who I will love forever.  I am so grateful to be your mom.  I am teary now thinking about how much of a miracle it is that you were placed in my life at just the right time.  You are my divine intervention during a very difficult time.  You were the one thing that made me realize that I had a purpose and a destiny – given by God.

I love you more than I could ever explain in words.  You are my son, my firstborn child.  You are so special to me, more than you will ever know.  Happy FIFTH birthday my boy!  My sweet Joshy boy!