It has been almost 3 weeks since my last post. Things have been so crazy. Our apartment flooded AGAIN and we are now homeless staying with friends from our church. What a nightmare, especially with 4 little ones in tow.
I don’t even have time to go into all the details, but just know that I have missed blogging very much. We are looking for a place to live right now and I am also trying to keep my virtual assistant and graphic design business going. Thank God that this wonderful family, who has taken us in, has wireless internet! So, my life now consists of living out of suitcases, taking care of my kids, working as much as I can, and holding on to God for dear life.
I am sure you are wondering why I have not fallen apart by now. Believe me, I have had my moments. Just yesterday I cried while driving home from looking at a rental house. I got so discouraged because the house was in our budget, but it was horrible. It had black mold growing on the walls and the rooms were really small. And the yard was only dirt – no grass. And that house was one of many that were very similar that I have looked at over the past few weeks. Last week I saw one that literally had crooked floors. I am just shocked at the condition of some of these places and the amount of money they want.
But, in spite of all the ups and downs, in spite of the unsettled life we are living in as a family – I know that God has something great in store. God allows things in our lives to make us stronger. We cannot give up or lose hope. We have to keep trusting in the midst of the suffering and the waiting.
I wrote a poem the other night. My first one in MANY years. I used to love to write – I suppose that is why I started blogging in the first place. But poetry went on the back burner once I started having kids. But getting my feelings out through this poem really helped me to have peace. So here goes:
In a world of in betweens
Dreaming of the beyond
Forced to trust and blindly walk
The curtain closes
Can’t see in the darkness
Left standing still – Waiting
For the next scene
The next blow
The next stain
Suffering waters the thirsty ground
Peace unfolds through the bleak winter days
Faith stirs under the surface
Helpless desperation for the Divine emerges
So, even though my life is turned upside down right now. This situation has drawn me closer to the Lord and for that I am grateful. I am focusing on the positive today instead of the negative. I have my moments of course, but I am really trying hard to be disciplined in my life and to stay focused on what is most important – God and my family.
Cindy Schultz says
I have been praying for you and your family and I will continue. I know God has the perfect place for you and your family. Don’t be afraid to sit and wait on God to show you where to look. Remember God’s timing is not our own, be faithful to the path He has put you on and you will emerge victorious!
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I am so sorry, that is awful! Keep thinking positive!
Looks like the kids are taking it all in stride. They’re still smiling. I’ll be praying you find a home soon.
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Sending hugs and prayers your way! Hope you find something you love!
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Mary Lutz says
It was so weird because I was just thinking about you the other day…like yesterday or the day before, how I hadn’t seen you on Twitter in a while or gotten a post from you in my email. I was going to try to contact you to see how things were, if you were all okay, and then I saw this post in my email today. I’m so sorry things are so tough for you right now. But, you do have the right outlook, and it’s awesome you’re drawing closer to God. That is the BEST thing you could possibly do. He is carrying you through this and though things seem bleak, He is the God of renewal and restoration. He will pull you all through this an on the other side, it will be amazing. Hang in there! I’m praying for you.
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Andrea H says
I had been wondering where you were since I hadn’t gotten your feed in a while. I am sad to hear about your home but I know there is something great coming your way. I will be praying for you girl!
Teresha@ Marlie and Me says
I was wondering where you had disappeared to! I’m sorry to hear about your recent troubles, but so happy that you are showing such a positive attitude which is reflective in the smiles of your children’s faces. You are a tough cookie and will overcome this difficult period. This too shall pass my friend.
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Hang in there! It’ll work out. I was wondering where you had gone. If I can help somehow, please, let me know.
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You are too sweet. Thanks so much for that. I was just about to write a post about all that has been going on since the flooding. God came through for us and we are now in a new wonderful home. So, stay tuned. Hugs right back at ya, DAWN
WOW girl. So much going on and with a new little one! You seem to be holding up well, as best you can I am sure. Of course those adorable smiling faces of the kids probably can’t help but make you realize how much you do have to be thankful for! ((HUGS))
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